Ya Allah kuatkan azamku

Ya Allah kuatkan azamku,

Aku sebenarnya tidak mahu terus hidup sebegini, aku perlukaN suntikan semangat… aku perlukan perkara yang BOLEH menjadi titik tolak dan platform untuk maju ke depan.

Ya Allah kuatkan azamku,

Dahulu aku adalah seorang yang penakut, tidak berani menerima cabaran, gemuruh, tidak pandai merancang dan tidak mampu mengharungi situsasi susah, jiwanya terlalu lembut kerana masalah-masalah yang ditempuHnya melemahkan kekuatan jiwanya. Aku mahu ubah sikap ini, kerana apa?, jawabnya ialah kerana aku tidak mahu terus berdiam diri bermastautin di dalam ketakutan.

Ya Allah kuatkan azamku,

Untuk memperolehi sesuatu, kita kena korbankan sesuatu. Setiap sesuatu ada harganya, harga bagi keberanian dan pengalaman ini adalah sifat egois YANG aku bangga-banggakan DAN sifat pengecut aku. Korbankanlah harga diri dan maruah kau yang tidak seberapa itu, apalah sangat kalau nak dibandingkan dengan pulangan yang bakal diperolehi.


Ya Allah kuatkan azamku,

Pengalaman yang akan diperolehi nanti sebenaryan sedikit-sebanyak dapat membantu dalam kehidupan. IA adalah suatu perkara yang cukup berkesan dalam membantu meningkatkan potensi kemajuan diri. Kekuatan mental dan fizikal memang sangat aku perlukan ketika ini bahkan di waktu hadapan. Aku tidak mahu meneruskan tradisi kegagalan. Sifat buruk itu perlu dikikis sebelum ia mencapai suatu tahap sukar untuk dibenteras.


Ya Allah kuatkan azamku,

Berhadapanlah dengan realiti kehidupan, tinggalkan segala khayalan dan fantasi-fantasi yang tidak mungkin menjadi benar. Hidup ini penuh cabaran, kemanisannya cukup sedikit sehingga tidak mampu menjadikan kepahitan itu bertukar rasanya. Kemana kau akan pergi dengan terus memasang impian palsu dan fantasi? Sedarlah dimana kau sekarang, pijak bumi ini, biar kau rasa yang kau memijak tanah bumi. Yang benar itu benar, kebenaran yang sememangnya dapat kau fahami.


Ya Allah kuatkan azamku,

Kebanyakan rakan tidak yakin dengan aku, kesangsian mereka begitu tebal mengatakan aku tidak boleh. Adakah sampai disini saja had yang aku mampu capai? Tidakkah boleh aku pergi lebih jauh lagi? Ya Allah, adakah ini sahaja kekuatan yang aku ada? Aku sangsi dengan diri aku sendiri, padahal aku tahu betapa sebelum ini kehidupan aku penuh dengan kesengsaraan, penderitaan, semuanya kesan daripada kurang pengalaman yang diperlukan dalam menempuh kehidupan. Nah!, tiada bezanya jika aku tidak mampu membuat perubahan, aku akan terus berada dalam kegelapan ini selama-lamanya, bayang ketakutan terus mengekoriku. Hentikan semua itu, keputusan di tangan kau, kehendak dirimu sendiri, buatlah keputusan dengan bijak dan saksama. Semuanya akan berakhir. Ya, semua mimpi buruk akan hilang.

Ya Allah kuatkan azamku,

SAAT UNTUK BERUBAH MEMANGGIL AKU, MENYENTAK DIRIKU UNTUK BANGUN DARI MIMPI DUSTA. KEHADAPAN, JANGAN MENOLEH LAGI KERANA TIADA JALAN UNTUK PULANG. SAAT SENANG TELAH TAMAT, SAAT INI PENUH TANGGUNGJAWAB, SAAT INI PENUH DENGAN SEMANGAT MEMBARA. BERTUKAR, BERUBAH, BERTENAGA MENGUBAH KESALAHAN DAN MEMASANG HARAPAN.

Enjoy Life Wei !!!

1.1 We make plans but God the Almighty will determine what will happen then, predestination to be exact. Sometimes I go BEYOND my limit, thinking or expecting something beyond my reach, something unbelievable and unacceptable which seemingly doesn’t meet me at the future. We full with the desire to get a happy life in which problems or blunders will not happen whatsoever but that expectation is too high.

1.2 So I teach myself to do this last thing, no matter who you are, no matter what you do, no matter what qualification you own, as long as you live in this world you should appreciate this life and live happily.

1.3 You only have this one life, no more life in this world once you died if that so then enjoy your life. THIS LIFE is so much OF fun, TRULY SAID.

Sing for Tribulation

1.1 It’s kind of funny when it comes to thinking the way this world treats the rest of us. Something unclear needs to be explained to make people around are aware of the imponderable truth that goes around them. In search of veracity people seem to be perplexed but that does not mean they have to remain in the room of circumspection.

1.2 The ignorance makes us stay in continual tribulation. What is true and what we want to be true are not always the same. It suggests that only god knows the mars planted inside us, only He can bring the cure to our wound and that is the reason why we must be capable of contrition.

1.3 The end of everything and the arrival of the day of absolution await us in dead silence. So, we can always ignore this irrefutable fact and live in charade or we can head to the soul-filling vision that is not completely unbeknownst to us. Well that's a pretty astute observation right?

MENCARI HIKMAH PERBUATAN TUHAN

1.1 HIDUP TANPA TUHAN MEMANG TIDAK BERMAKNA, SEJAUH MANAPUN KITA INGIN LARI DARIPADA HAKIKAT BERTUHAN AKHIRNYA PADA SUATU TAHAP KITA AKAN MENGAKU KALAH DENGAN MENYEDARI BETAPA ADA SUATU KUASA LAIN YANG MEMPENGARUHI HIDUP KITA, YANG LEBIH BERKUASA MENENTUKAN HIDUP KITA, TEMPAT UNTUK KITA MENGADU NASIB MEMINTA SESUATU.

1.2 TUHAN YANG MAHA ESA, SENTIASA BERSAMA KITA, PERBAIKKANLAH SANGKAAN TERHADAP TUHAN, CARILAH HIKMAH DISEBALIK TINDAKAN TUHAN, MESKIPUN MENDUNG HITAM SENTIASA MENYELUBUNGI KITA, TETAPI DENGAN MERENUNG ERTI SEBENAR KEHIDUPAN DUNIAWI YANG SINGKAT INI MUNGKIN KITA DAPAT MENGERTI SEGALA TINDAKAN TUHAN.

1.2 KERAP AKU BERTANYA MENGAPA TUHAN TIDAK MENJADIKAN AKU SEHEBAT MANUSIA LAIN LENGKAP DENGAN WAJAH RUPA MENAWAN, DIKURNIA BAKAT TERTENTU, LAHIR DALAM KEBAHAGIAAN DAN KEMEWAHAN, MENGAPA TIDAK TUHAN JADIKAN AKU SEBAIK MEREKA, ADAKAH TUHAN INGIN MENYEKSA AKU? NAMPAKNYA AKU GAGAL MEMAHAMI BAHAWA KELEBIHAN-KELEBIHAN INI MEMPUNYAI HARGA BAYARAN YANG TINGGI, KEPADA SESIAPA YANG DIKURNIAKAN DENGAN KESEMUA INI MAKA MEREKA AKAN MENJAWAB DI HADAPAN TUHAN BAGAIMANA MEREKA MENGGUNAKAN KESEGAKAN MEREKA, KEKUATAN MEREKA DAN KEHEBATAN MEREKA, TUHAN JADIKAN AKU SERBA KEKURANGAN KERANA INGINKAN AKU BELAJAR MENJADI SEORANG HAMBA YANG MERASA BERGANTUNG KEPADA-NYA, MERASA DIRI TIDAK PUNYA KEKUATAN KECUALI JIKA HANYA DIIZINKAN TUHAN MEMILIKINYA.

1.3 BAHAGIA LUAS MAKSUDNYA, IA TIDAK BOLEH DIUKUR DENGAN KEKUATAN KEEWANGAN ATAU KECANTIKAN, IA ADALAH PERASAAN SELESA DENGAN KEHIDUPAN MESKIPUN HIDUP DALAM KEKURANGAN DAN SERBA KEMISKINAN, HIDUP YANG MEMPUNYAI BARKAH ATAU KEBERKATAN ADALAH AJAIB DIMANA MANUSIA MERASA BERASA SELESA DAN BAHAGIA DENGAN KEKURANGADAN TIDAK MERINTIH DENGAN KEKURANGAN TERSEBUT SEBALIKNYA BERSYUKUR KEPADA TUHAN KERANA MENGURNIAKAN SEBUAH KEHIDUPAN YANG BAHAGIA.

1.4 JUSTERU ITU, BAIKKANLAH SANGKAAN TERHADAP TUHAN, TUHAN TIDAK MENGINGINKAN HAMBANYA HIDUP DALAM KESUSAHAN DAN PENDERITAAN DAN JIKA DIA BERBUAT BEGITU MAKA ADA TUJUAN DAN MAKSUD TERSEMBUNYI YANG HARUS DICARI OLEH MANUSIA. DAN KERANA ITU JUGA, JANGANLAH DIRI ENGKAU TERUS MEMPERSOALKAN TENTANG KEADILAN DALAM SEGALA TINDAKKAN TUHAN, KEBAHAGIANMU PASTI MENJELANG NANTI DAN HANYALAH KESABARAN YANG PERLU KAU TANAMKAN DALAM JIWAMU AGAR IA MEMBIAK BERKEMBANG DIDALAM DIRIMU MENJADI SEPOHON KAYU BESAR YANG KUAT MEMBERI TEDUHAN DARIPADA HUJAN KERAGUAN.

A grouse

1.1 Date from today, I need not to be afraid of anything. It dawned on me that up until now I was a person who’s self always inconsistent when doing something. In this day and age, to be afraid is a mistake that should not be done at all but what a pity, I still being in a state of deadlock situation on this issue. Until when I want to turn a deaf ear to what people say about me.

1.2 To not have confidence and being afraid are bound to have a debilitating effect on my reputation as international Islamic university student. It is no doubt that my performance in study field is on the decline, that diminution keeps happening no matter how much I try to stop it. In other words the difficulty proves more formidable than I expected.

1.3 That is the reason why I always was deep in thought all the time thinking hard about it. Sometimes I assume myself as the one who gets thrown in at deep end, no ones there to help me. And needless to say, the excessive worry always across my mind that this problem would defeat me at the end.

1.4 I am quite devoid of self-respect. Thanks to my forbearance for being able to indulge with this bad thing. But I cannot blame the past all the time, I will have to go ahead to do lots of changes so that I can be equally same with others. In the fullness of time, everyone will learn the truth of everything that happens for now.

1.5 So it is a must to galvanize myself into action, to change from the bad situation to another good one. I want to take up the gauntlet to be in par with the others. My strategy now is geared towards making myself busy with study. For being able to study at this university is really a godsend for me after all. The golden rule in achieving success is not going to give up ever once (everybody see eye to eye on that hu hu hu).

Development Demystified

1.1 Whatever way underdevelopment is defined and whether one accepts or rejects any such definition, the following questions remain unresolved: why does “underdevelopment” persists, particularly in the Muslim world? Is it a permanent feature of Muslim societies? Are poverty and deprivation, hunger and famine, infant-mortality and illiteracy, epidemic and disaster, political turmoil and repression, external dependence and internal corruption indelible characteristic of Muslim societies and compatible with Islam?

1.2 While the pile of literature on development and underdevelopment is steadily growing, with contributions from the Western pundits and their counterparts in the underdeveloped world, Muslims especially are not succeeding in making any appreciable dent in the problem of underdevelopment. Even the Islamic response to the problem of underdevelopment is intellection at best, and mired in, among many other factors, the pitfalls of “Islamic social science”, compartmentalized in the same way western social science is. Are we all, witting or unwitting, participants in mystifying the problem of underdevelopment? Are really some secrets about development yet to be discovered, something that Muslim in particular do not know yet? If the answer to the above question is negative, then what is the value of the intellectual and practical effort of Muslims to date in analyzing and overcoming our current but chronic conditions that according to Islamic criteria are utterly unacceptable?

1.3 The prime gist of this writing is that there is no secret about development and underdevelopment. And, if there is not, then Muslim who inspires to global transformation of the Ummah, regardless of their professional and academic background, must reexamine their orientation and explore new perspectives to diagnose and address the pertinent issues.

1.4 Everyone all over the world is under illusion that Muslim ummah cannot grow up and develop in its own stand to catch up with the development of today’s modern world. It is indubitable that the contribution of Western to the developments of science and technology achievement is immeasurable but not to the point that they can accuse Muslim with such undeserved label by saying them as underdeveloped society. But Muslim on the contrary should have no illusion towards anybody else about the matters. This unmistakably illustrate the fact that Muslim people has been thought the very good moral system as had been shown by their epitome and illustrious one, Prophet Muhammad P.B.U.H, even if the whole world is having ill-will towards them. All of Muslims, however, are truthfully promoted to imitate his good and immaculate moral. Fighting is immensely immaterial right now and the action will somehow considered as ignominious one but the west has haughtily declared that war is imminent to demolish Muslim’s power. They want to immobilize Muslim military power and at the same time attack them until they give up. The detestation towards Muslim is deeply entrenched in their heart.

1.5 This problem is just the tip of the iceberg, there will be much more problems related to and afflicted Muslim Ummah. Ideally, Muslims need to be independent rather clinging on others. Muslim ummah should not anymore idolize western as their model. This thing is truly ignominious defeat of Muslim and Muslim should be shameful of theirselves. People around the world keep calling Muslim as an ignoramus and it was ill-advised attempt to surrender and to give up at this juncture now this action done is not appropriate and ill-timed and inopportune. We are exasperated knowing the ill-treatment of Muslim people in Gaza. It must have been an excruciating for them, their action indisputably excusable.

1.6 The time has come for us to voice our inner dissaticfaction towards what befallen our beloved brothers in Gaza. Many knows how much Muslim people of today suffer from the unendurable pain that no one can ever imagine that, Palestine people still fight for their right and still they do not get what they suppose to get, why don’t we take Afghanistan and Iraq problem into consideration?. Yes, they also endure the same pain as their brother experienced but no one pay attention and sympathize to these poor people even among Muslim people. In the name of vanishing terrorism, western world have the good reason to destroy Muslim, kill Muslim people, rape their daughter, destroy their belongings these are what they order their soldiers to do to the Muslim Ummah there but we the rest Muslim who live the good and happy life never understand their suffering and sadly to note that we admire the civilization of western and its culture more than we respect our Islamic civilization. Dont ask what Arabs can do to solve this problem for they can't do nothing. Arabs now are too coward to discuss this matter and we can see that clearly now. We Malaysians condemn the Jewish doings towards our brother and we will ensure that we will do whatever it takes in tandem with the law to prevent it even it is just by writing or donating money. And for all arabs outside you can continue taking a nap.

We Loathe Bid'ah

1.1 TANGGUNGJAWAB KAMI UNTUK MENCABUT AKAR-AKAR BID’AH DI DALAM MASYARAKAT.MENGHAPUSKAN AMALAN BID’AH YANG BERKAITAN DENGAN AQIDAH DAN IBADAH. DAN MENEGAKKAN SUNNAH NABI S.A.W YANG SEMAKIN DILUPAKAN DAN KINI DIANGGAP ASING BAGAIKAN AJARAN SESAT.

1.2 MERUPAKAN TUGAS KAMI JUGA UNTUK MEMBASMI PEMBOHONGAN YANG BERLAKU MENGOTORKAN FAKTA SEJARAH PARA SAHABAT KHALIFAH YANG DILAKUKAN OLEH PUAK SYIAH. PUAK SYIAH SEMAKIN BERLELUASA BERKEMBANG DI DALAM MASYARAKAT ISLAM MELAYU DI MALAYSIA.

1.3 INI TUGAS KAMI MENGHIDUPKAN SUNNAH MATRUKAH NABI MUHAMMAD S.A.W. KAMI GENERASI AKHIR ZAMAN MENERUSKAN PERJUANGAN SALAFUSSOLEH. BERSAMA BERMANHAJ DENGAN MANHAJ SALAF.

» Life of a weirdo »

1.1 Be patient for a while, the woe will be over soon even it seems to be interminable beforehand. Being underestimated is not something great especially when you are still struggling to walk a new path. But whether it is real or not, the issue here is not to surrender before the battle.

1.2 I am standing here knowing my standard and I am cognizant of this incontrovertible fact, when I gaze carefully, the distinction between me and the others is too apparent and that makes me utter this phrase "I ain't somebody here". My mind keeps thinking the ways to defeat the enemy, too many enemies surrounding me who always exasperate me which their reprobate doings transgress morality and human decency thus leave me to the state of having no alternatives other than beating them all. That is what it takes for deprecating me.

1.3 To procure the ultimate satisfaction and vengeance, I need proclivity to sideline today's pleasure, when time arrives it is my opportunity to show off to palliate my discomfort. It may look heinous but actually it is something I desire most to do, that's inimical plus it will bring about the deleterious effects to myself but it will truly induces me feeling comfortable and I will be waiting for the day when they all feel compunction for the shabby way they treat me.

1.4 I believe if I endure this pressure I will not be having any problems to encounter any troubles await me outside there. Meaning that, I have to learn many things and undergo lots of inextricable obstacles before reaching the success . Forbearance teaches us how to comprehend life and make us not escaping from the reality. Thus, take it now; bear troublesome things now before you get into the very real life. Fear not anything, just show you can do whatever you want and you can get whatever you desire, and show to others that you have changed, YOu ARE now independent , strong willed- person and long-suffering one too. THE OnLY REASON BEHIND THAT is, God creates you to be someone, the one who's entitled to commendation.